January 28th, 2018

I have to close Apps4iDevices....
One more time...
Old readers will say as usual...
Yes,...
It's my last post before to go to jail...
3 years, I guess...
Yesterday while I was sleeping someone stoll me all my money...
I received my money yesterday from my last job...
15 000 baths....
I wanted to buy a new speaker to be able to play again....

I am cleaning my room right now...
I already give all my clothes to the Thai people of my Soï...
They are so nice...
They offered me money, food,...
They are sad...
I am very sad too...
I didn't accepted their money...
I will accept no money from anyone....
I have to assume my life...

I am very sad because I will never see My litle sister again....
I love her so much...
I met this girl 2 days after that I was arriving here in Bangkok...
She is so beautiful...
She is a street artist...
A painter...
I felt in love with her are the moment I saw her...
But after 10 minutes she told me that she was waiting her boyfriend, here every night since 3 years...
No more news from him since 1 year...
I felt more in love after she told me this...
So incredible....
A girl like this can exist...
I had to change my feeling...
"Ed, if you love her, you have to make this girl happy... This is love..."
I succeed to find her boyfriend in Korea after 2 years...
I payed her a flight to Seoul...
It was the first time for her... A plane...
I love her...
This is why I did this...
My father will never read these lines...
Too bad...
Love is to give..
Not to take...

Now, all the Apps on the banners above...
All my apologies to all the developers....
I ma really really sorry...
And I want to thank you very much...

I had a fantastic life...
Very rich...
Sometimes too much...
😀

I tried all my life to do the best around me...
But, I am an Asperger....
And most all the times people didn't understand my reactions, my attitudes...
I am happy because here in all Pinklao and Kahossan, if you say to somebody,
Do you know the Good Farang...
They will say yes..
It's Ed, the guitar player....
I am happy....
Because the is the only thing I always wanted in my life...
To be considered as a good man...

I have to finish to clean my room...
I am waiting that my little sister wakes up..
I will give her my iPads, my guitar and my Audio Interfaces....
I hope that she will be able to make a little bit money with this...
After I will make a picture of her..
(I mean an Asperger picture... Nobody can take a picture of her, excepted the boyfriend....)
After, I go to the Police Station...
And after...

We are Artists.
It's hard to be an Artist...
It's a very hard way...
But the most beautiful....
We needs dreams to create Arts...
We need to think that we can be the Beatles, U2...
But these dreams are only there to help us when we are down, when it's hard...
Also to make us proud of a song we made...
But these dreams are not a goal...
The goal is to make our Arts everyday, at any time...
Every steps we make with our Arts is a victory on the way of life...
There is no goal....

I am not totally sure that you will have other news from me, a day...
I am not totally sure to be able to live a long time in the emigration jail...
But, I had a fantastic life, because all the steps are made was with my music...

So. I wish you all the best!
I hope that some of you will be able to change this world a little bit...
Don't be sad!
For me....
I mean...
I succeed!
I was a good man here in Thailand....

Have a nice day or night depending of where you are in the Galaxy!
My best
Ed
Kap!